Posts Tagged ‘Nablopomo’
Notregrettable
Sunday, October 4th, 2009
To turn this month’s theme inside out, I can tell you what I am not regretting.
- I am so glad that I tried things I haven’t liked.
- Every moment spent paying attention to an animal has been worthwhile.
- I am always glad to have hugged my friends extra hard.
- I don’t regret one moment spent dreaming about my future. It always works out the way I want if not always in the way that I want.
- It’s good to take health days before you get sick. I’m glad I’ve done that too.
Time Bandit
Saturday, October 3rd, 2009
Baby, I spent several hours tonight trying to troubleshoot PHP.
I’m pretty pissed off about it. I didn’t learn anything about PHP, I didn’t learn anything, really.
It was a freaking waste of my time. And I’m angry because I have no time to waste.
There’s a quote by W.H. Auden.
“Perhaps there is only one cardinal sin: impatience. Because of impatience we were driven out of Paradise, because of impatience we cannot return.”
Impatience is my very worst trait.
I’m haunted by the people I’ve tailgated, the rolled eyes in line, the zooming around the elderly and very young on the sidewalk.
With children, with my children, I fight that impulse every day.
Help me to overcome that tendency.
Sleepy
Friday, October 2nd, 2009
I had the first solid night of sleep in a long time last night. Since I’ve been pregnant with you, I haven’t really slept for more than 4 hours at a time. And I’m sorry about that. When I don’t get enough sleep, I’m weepy and depressed and overwhelmed with the impossibility of life. When I read that most Americans aren’t getting enough sleep, I worry that you’ll grow up in a community of people also weepy, depressed and overwhelmed with the impossibility of life.
Make sure you get enough sleep, always.